At any rate, Koroleva will reach her before he does, the bahari rushing headlong through the door to pounce on her owner. Nikolai follows, his hand on Korol's shoulder to keep him back. ]
There you are. And in one piece as well, imagine that.
[ Nikolai leans against the rover door, watching her. One of his eyebrows flickers. He believes her, but she'd just vanished. Completely, with no trace. If even Koroleva had been unable to find her, he's sure enough she hadn't been in finding distance. ]
Are you going to tell me what happened? After all you could have been anywhere. I did a directory search to see if any pilgrim crowds were loitering in the area, but it came up blank I'm afraid.
She sets Koroleva down, no longer able to support her weight, and Koroleva is back to harassing Korol over the aforementioned food. ]
Gliese called us for a meeting previously. We weren't allowed to talk about it. I thought we were just going to be meeting at her rover, like she asked us to do, but we ended up on a whole other planet.
[ for a second she forgets she's supposed to be in trouble. ]
Nikolai, it was so sudden. We were on Ajna one second, then on Dakham the next. And there were so many people. It's not like Ajna. There was a city and it was big and there were more people than I think there were in all of Os Alta.
[ She pauses a moment, looking up at him as he says that last part. ]
I'm sorry. I really would have told you if I'd know. Gliese was with us, though. I was safe.
There was nothing wrong, though. It's where the CDC headquarters is based. We attended an event, and then Gliese told us why she'd contacted us in the first place.
What if something happened to you? What would I do, Alina?
[ He touches her cheek, and very briefly, his eyes clear to show the worry he's been hiding. Genuine worry, because she's the only one here from his world.
The only one who trusts.
And the one he has to ensure gets home safely. Ravka needs her. Nikolai needs her.
And she's his friend and what if she'd been hurt? ]
The next time you have to leave, let me know. I don't care if you can't tell me why. Just let me know so that I know you aren't lying somewhere, helpless.
[ He'll worry about what clearance means in a minute. First, he needs to know she understands. ]
He's not just being serious. Or angry about it. He's hurt. He's upset. He's been worrying about her.
She didn't realize this went both ways. Or how deeply it went for him. She knew she worried about him but she didn't stop to think about it the other way.
She looks up at him as he touches her cheek softly. Just like before they separated at home.
Her arms go around him suddenly, giving him a tight hug. ]
I promise. I won't disappear again. Not without telling you.
[ Her movement is sudden enough to surprise him, but he hugs her back nevertheless. She had worried him. Aside from his own safety, hers is the main thing he cares about here. He holds her tightly, keeping her near for a moment.
He only leans back when she makes that promise. ]
Good. Thank you. I'd after all hate to charge in and defend your honour if you were attending a simple meeting. Honestly, Alina, it's as if you don't care whether I embarrass myself.
[ She blinks a couple of times at that statement. ]
I don't think I've ever seen you embarrassed. I'd almost pay to see it happen.
[ But. Main topic. She nods and steps back a little so she's not... clinging to him....
Then she takes out her patch and shows it to him. ]
I'm an official member of the Neheda crew. Not just a recruit in training. We get a little more information now, not a lot but some more. And leading roles.
[ Like a lightning strike. Bemused, Nikolai smiles and reaches to trace his thumb over it. ]
They must think you're a Squallor. I hope you didn't correct them.
[ Then he raises his eyes to hers. His smile is more genuine now, though some of the worry has returned. Greater clearance means more information.
It also means they've taken note of her. And they're watching her. And they're dangerous, and if she puts a foot out of line... ]
Gliese has a good eye in her head. She knows a leader when she sees one. You'll do well, Alina. I presume this is information you're not allowed to share?
[ The corner of his mouth flicks upwards in a crooked smile. He shakes his head. ]
Modesty is unbecoming, lovely. You know how I feel about that.
Months ago you told me you wanted to lead an army, and I scoffed at it because you had no experience to speak of. And then you did it, and they clamoured to follow you.
Remember all you know, and you'll be fine. I would have chosen you. [ A pause. ] I did choose you. I can believe the CDC could be wrong, but I'm certainly confident in my own choices.
[ He looks at her steadily, and reaches to take hold of her arms. ]
No different at all. You assert yourself. You speak with authority, and you hold your strength clear of them. No one takes it from you. You meet insults with laughter, and challenges with victories, and you know the difference between them. When they scoff at you, smile at them. You know all of this already. You just have to do it.
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We're at my rover.
That's also a yes. She'll be glad to see you, I think she missed you.
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Did she really?
I'll be there soon.
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Good to know. It's always nice to have advance warning of this sort of thing.
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Regardless, she's at his rover and knocks on the door, waiting for him outside. ]
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At any rate, Koroleva will reach her before he does, the bahari rushing headlong through the door to pounce on her owner. Nikolai follows, his hand on Korol's shoulder to keep him back. ]
There you are. And in one piece as well, imagine that.
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Sorry. [ She glances up at him. ] I didn't really know I'd be leaving.
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Are you going to tell me what happened? After all you could have been anywhere. I did a directory search to see if any pilgrim crowds were loitering in the area, but it came up blank I'm afraid.
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She sets Koroleva down, no longer able to support her weight, and Koroleva is back to harassing Korol over the aforementioned food. ]
Gliese called us for a meeting previously. We weren't allowed to talk about it. I thought we were just going to be meeting at her rover, like she asked us to do, but we ended up on a whole other planet.
[ for a second she forgets she's supposed to be in trouble. ]
Nikolai, it was so sudden. We were on Ajna one second, then on Dakham the next. And there were so many people. It's not like Ajna. There was a city and it was big and there were more people than I think there were in all of Os Alta.
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Meanwhile, Nikolai frowns at her. His cooler expression drops away when she starts to explain, and he reaches out for her arm. ]
Are you all right? What happened, Alina?
I'll understand if you can't tell me, but another planet. What if you'd been hurt? I'd never even have known.
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I'm sorry. I really would have told you if I'd know. Gliese was with us, though. I was safe.
There was nothing wrong, though. It's where the CDC headquarters is based. We attended an event, and then Gliese told us why she'd contacted us in the first place.
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[ He steps down from the rover, shutting the door behind him, and closing the distance between them. ]
Why did she contact you? Can you tell me what you saw?
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I don't know how much we're allowed to talk about what we saw.
But Gliese gave me a new patch and clearance level.
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[ He touches her cheek, and very briefly, his eyes clear to show the worry he's been hiding. Genuine worry, because she's the only one here from his world.
The only one who trusts.
And the one he has to ensure gets home safely. Ravka needs her. Nikolai needs her.
And she's his friend and what if she'd been hurt? ]
The next time you have to leave, let me know. I don't care if you can't tell me why. Just let me know so that I know you aren't lying somewhere, helpless.
[ He'll worry about what clearance means in a minute. First, he needs to know she understands. ]
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He's not just being serious. Or angry about it. He's hurt. He's upset. He's been worrying about her.
She didn't realize this went both ways. Or how deeply it went for him. She knew she worried about him but she didn't stop to think about it the other way.
She looks up at him as he touches her cheek softly. Just like before they separated at home.
Her arms go around him suddenly, giving him a tight hug. ]
I promise. I won't disappear again. Not without telling you.
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He only leans back when she makes that promise. ]
Good. Thank you. I'd after all hate to charge in and defend your honour if you were attending a simple meeting. Honestly, Alina, it's as if you don't care whether I embarrass myself.
[ Now he smiles. Slightly, but it's there. ]
Now. What's this about clearance?
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I don't think I've ever seen you embarrassed. I'd almost pay to see it happen.
[ But. Main topic. She nods and steps back a little so she's not... clinging to him....
Then she takes out her patch and shows it to him. ]
I'm an official member of the Neheda crew. Not just a recruit in training. We get a little more information now, not a lot but some more. And leading roles.
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They must think you're a Squallor. I hope you didn't correct them.
[ Then he raises his eyes to hers. His smile is more genuine now, though some of the worry has returned. Greater clearance means more information.
It also means they've taken note of her. And they're watching her. And they're dangerous, and if she puts a foot out of line... ]
Gliese has a good eye in her head. She knows a leader when she sees one. You'll do well, Alina. I presume this is information you're not allowed to share?
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Some things I won't be able to share. At least until you get your own patch.
[ She frowns. ] There are a lot of people here better at this than me. I'm willing to do the work and effort, but you're already better than I am.
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Modesty is unbecoming, lovely. You know how I feel about that.
Months ago you told me you wanted to lead an army, and I scoffed at it because you had no experience to speak of. And then you did it, and they clamoured to follow you.
Remember all you know, and you'll be fine. I would have chosen you. [ A pause. ] I did choose you. I can believe the CDC could be wrong, but I'm certainly confident in my own choices.
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You might have been kind of crazy to allow me.
Leading the Grisha is different from leading a bunch of people I don't know.
[ But she nods her head. ] I'll still do my best. You'll probably still have to coach me, though.
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[ He looks at her steadily, and reaches to take hold of her arms. ]
No different at all. You assert yourself. You speak with authority, and you hold your strength clear of them. No one takes it from you. You meet insults with laughter, and challenges with victories, and you know the difference between them. When they scoff at you, smile at them. You know all of this already. You just have to do it.
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Hey, maybe if I really mess up I can embarrass you by saying you trained me.
Maybe then I could finally see you embarrassed.
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And of course, I'm proud of you already. Deflecting a serious situation and turning it into humour? A classic move.
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I rank higher than you now. I could boss you around.
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I should probably worry about the amount of pleasure you sound like you'd take in that.
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