Sturmhond I let myself get caught because it was the only way to save him
[Which is, Luke is distantly aware, a terribly manipulative thing to say, but it's important to him that he make his situation clear. Sturmhond is the first person he's told this story to; he wants him, and whatever CDC operative that will eventually read this transcript, to understand the details.]
FROM: skywalker.luke@cdc.org
Like I said my situation was very unusual. I don't think it applies here.
FROM: skywalker.luke@cdc.org
I shouldn't bother you with it anyway. You know best
We all have our reasons for being here. Disparate as they are.
FROM: sturmhond@cdc.org
If this is what I must do in order to see it through, then I'll do it. I won't enjoy it, but I assure you. I'll be fine. I will always be fine.
[ Because he will make himself be. They aren't going to break his spirit, and he's not going to lose his emotional control just because they cause him pain. Pain is temporary; he can deal with that.
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FROM: sturmhond@cdc.org
Then he did what any father should. Albeit, a little late.
FROM: sturmhond@cdc.org
But I'm afraid I haven't a father figure to whom I can appeal, today. Asking won't get me anywhere. That's not how they work, I'm afraid.
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Sturmhond I let myself get caught because it was the only way to save him
[Which is, Luke is distantly aware, a terribly manipulative thing to say, but it's important to him that he make his situation clear. Sturmhond is the first person he's told this story to; he wants him, and whatever CDC operative that will eventually read this transcript, to understand the details.]
FROM: skywalker.luke@cdc.org
Like I said my situation was very unusual. I don't think it applies here.
FROM: skywalker.luke@cdc.org
I shouldn't bother you with it anyway. You know best
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Then it does apply, Luke. Of course it applies.
FROM: sturmhond@cdc.org
We all have our reasons for being here. Disparate as they are.
FROM: sturmhond@cdc.org
If this is what I must do in order to see it through, then I'll do it. I won't enjoy it, but I assure you. I'll be fine. I will always be fine.
[ Because he will make himself be. They aren't going to break his spirit, and he's not going to lose his emotional control just because they cause him pain. Pain is temporary; he can deal with that.
There are worse things than pain. ]
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If it does then I don't know how. But it seems like you're the one who knows everything these days
FROM: skywalker.luke@cdc.org
I guess what I mean to say is this
FROM: skywalker.luke@cdc.org
You saved my life once and I'm not a Wookiee but that's important so tell me if you ever need any help being fine
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I would be terribly bored if I knew everything. I don't know how I'd fill my day.
FROM: sturmhond@cdc.org
And you're welcome. Though I don't precisely know what a Wookiee is. Some sort of religious figure?
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Telling ignorant people how much you know of course! You would have to grow a beard first
[If he wants to joke, Luke can joke. Maybe that's what he needs.]
FROM: skywalker.luke@cdc.org
Oh they're just another sentient species. They have something called a life debt. I'm sure you can guess what that is
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I would look terrible with a beard. Anyway, it's always better if people assume you're ignorant.
FROM: sturmhond@cdc.org
A life debt sounds very final. I'd prefer a less formal arrangement. Casual friendship, perhaps?
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It's either that or go bald
FROM: skywalker.luke@cdc.org
I think most people assume the other person is ignorant. I don't really mind
FROM: skywalker.luke@cdc.org
I think that goes without saying
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I can't keep my hair and stay pretty?
FROM: sturmhond@cdc.org
We'll be all right.