Will it not take him even longer? After so long, he still cares for his wife. He may choose to never love again. I could not blame him for that. Theoretically I have nothing stopping me.

[ There are many reasons why this is a terrible idea. That one is the largest. However, there are still other troubles weighing on his mind. It is but one issue of a thousand. If he decided to talk about them, and even then he isn't sure of that, it would take all day and all night. Instead he sorts through his thoughts, weighs them up, and then tentatively bring up one of the main issues.

Quietly, hesitantly, he presses onwards. ]

I have been told that such feelings are a weakness. Sometimes, I am not sure that they are wrong in saying that. Especially in this kind of business.