[ Of course he wants everything to be treated like a weapon. Sturmhond would use whatever he has to survive and she knows that. Clary can't exactly fault him for it. But she's still surprised when he's telling her to apply it as well. To her, his training had been more like here is a knife, use it and not now be the knife. ]

You know I'm trying, right? I listen to you. I trust you. [ She scrubs one hand over her face and heaves a sigh. ] It's just really hard. It sounds crazy. Everything always does.